Rereading those emails I see how fast things evolved between me and Dave. We were kind of living day by day, a life that was boring and lacking a purpose. We didn’t love anybody and nobody loved us.
Once somebody asked me what was my goal in life. Not God’s purpose for me, not my role in the great scheme of things, but what did I want to accomplish in my life, what was it that would make my life complete. It wasn’t that easy to look inside myself for the answer, but after discarding all the worries about how anybody else would judge it, the answer was actually very simple. I wanted to love and be loved.
The easy part is to love. I have loved a few times, but I had never been loved. Nobody, before Dave, had bothered to really know me and love me for what I am. Nobody bothered to look into my painful memories and wish they were there to comfort me. Nobody had seen the path I traveled to get to what I am today and seen the beauty in me through all my experiences.
And then this guy from halfway around the world shows up. And he’s as hungry to show himself and be loved for everything he is as I am.
Those first emails were kind of testing the waters to see if it was safe to jump. And the water was so inviting! Soon we were looking forward to what would be in our inbox the next day. We wanted more and we had a whole lifetime of thoughts and feelings to share.
And the more we shared the more we felt accepted and embraced.
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